Betrayal
Lately my husband has been so busy at work. And he’s been pretty stressed. He’s been living for the weekends, but even those are somewhat stressed because of the remnants of work. A few nights ago, after we went up to bed, he seemed particularly worn down and restless. So I asked him what was wrong. He answered with his old standby-nothing. Now, when my … Continue reading Missing person
Back in 2008 our old washer died. My husband had repaired it multiple times over its lifespan and we decided to buy a new set of washer/dryer. Front loaders had recently made their debut onto the scene and we decided to buy a set of those. As a mom to many children, having a new washer and dryer with large capacity made me pretty happy. … Continue reading Lessons from my dryer
Today, back in 2013, I saw a picture of my husband and Bobbie at an early morning event together. I knew he was going to the event. He failed to mention to me that she was also going to the event. As luck would have it pictures were taken at the event and I saw the picture of them there together later that day. I … Continue reading More January
January is just one of those months that I think about the affair randomly and unexpectedly without much notice. Sometimes I try to tell myself not to think about it, sometimes I think maybe I should purposely think about it so it will go away, but nothing usually works. January is the month of nothing for most people. It’s the month of remembering for me. … Continue reading January
My husband and I started watching a series on AppleTV+. I don’t know if my emotions are in some type of uproar since my surgery and I’m just overly sensitive or what, but even though I have powered through this one, it’s the second time in a few months that the incidence of an affair really affected me on a tv show. It also could … Continue reading Cracked
It’s the number one question we ask ourselves, those of us who have been thrust into the infidelity world. And honestly I think the victim asks that question as well as the assailant. Everybody wants things to be okay again and to go back to what used to be normal. But, no matter which side is asking that question the answer is always the same-I … Continue reading When will things be normal again?
I have never told the story of my husband’s affair out loud. I have written it all here in this forum. I have told parts of it, bits and pieces, to certain individuals. But, I have never narrated my story verbally. But a few days ago I did just that. And it wasn’t just to anyone, but to someone who actually knows my husband well, … Continue reading Unraveling
My husband’s sister is coming to stay a few days with me at my cabin. It will just be her and me. I am looking forward to the visit, but I’m also feeling a little nervous about it. My husband’s family knows that he had an affair. But, they only know the details from the very beginning. It is not something we have talked about … Continue reading I own this story
I was hiking yesterday and thinking about my life while looking at the forest. Trees grow both through genetics and their environment. Trees will bend, grow branches on just one side, grow with deep roots or exposed roots, all depending on what species they are and where they are growing. I was sitting on a log and taking a moment to get a drink and … Continue reading Genetics or environment?
I am mid-way through reading a really good book. The book is about a relationship between two brothers. I know when this book ends I’m going to miss the story and the characters, the deepness of the writing. And, as I often do, I’ll go into a book mourning about the story ending and wishing there was more to tell of that story. I feel … Continue reading The last page
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