I had a bad day

My husband and I had an unscheduled talk last night.  Truthfully, we haven’t had a scheduled talk in a while.  It was me who instigated this discussion. I needed to talk about things, the affair, his lack of discussion about the affair, the usual.  He was receptive and understanding.  And that drives me crazy.  You’re probably wondering why this drives me crazy.  You see, this … Continue reading I had a bad day

I am writing these for you

My husband took off work on Monday and we spent the day together.  We had planned this and it was something that I was looking forward to doing.  But, as long car rides often do, my mind wanders, especially when certain songs come on the radio.  I’ve asked him before if the same thing happens to him, if he ever found  himself thinking about her. … Continue reading I am writing these for you

Five Years, three years, a lifetime

It’s hard to believe it’s been almost five years since I found out what I didn’t want to find out.  It was numbing and unthinkable and inconceivable.  I didn’t think it was real for the longest time.  Then I went into FBI mode and managed to accomplish what a lot of professional people couldn’t.  I was able to record their conversations, when they were alone … Continue reading Five Years, three years, a lifetime

New Year

I can’t believe we are this far into the new year already.  Time does fly.  One of my younger sons opened up to me yesterday about how scared he was when we were fighting and asked me if everything was perfect again.  Perfect…that word kind of stings.  While I have always conceded there is no such thing as perfect, I always thought things were perfect … Continue reading New Year

Days like today

I don’t know why, but I’m tired.  Just tired of the whole thing, the whole process.  I’m worn down today.  I know that I am not worn down for good, or for even longer than today.  Today, I’m exhausted.  I don’t have a reason to feel this way, I suppose.  It’s just one of my down days.  And these days creep up on me, surprising … Continue reading Days like today

Steve, the turtle, returns to my bizarro world

See this turtle: This turtle showed up at my house today.  My friend was picking me up and she almost ran over him.  We picked him up and moved him to the grass.  Four hours later when we returned back to my house the turtle had crawled back onto the driveway.  We almost ran over him again.  No big deal, right?  Wrong.  This is a … Continue reading Steve, the turtle, returns to my bizarro world

In love or deep love?

As conversations ensue between my husband and I, the faucet opens up a little more each time.  When you’re in such a hurry like me to raise the rug and throw it out the door, patience is difficult.  I admit I want a waterfall, and I’m getting a slow, steady stream.  I remind myself to be content with this, because not too long ago it … Continue reading In love or deep love?