My story has a beginning, but the middle is way more interesting

My journey through an affair to find peace again. Continue reading My story has a beginning, but the middle is way more interesting

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The Last Dregs of Healing

I think one of the hardest things about an affair is the constant wondering.  At first you’re wondering if they’re still cheating and wondering where they are and what they’re doing.  Not knowing is, of course, one of the worst feelings ever.  And I can remember that feeling as if I were feeling it an  hour ago.  And some things still trigger those feelings, dumb … Continue reading The Last Dregs of Healing

I’m not looking for a fairytale

The last few day have been a whirlwind, even though I’ve been dying to come here and write.  You know, it’s amazing to me how things have just fallen into place.  Sometimes I just can’t even fathom it all or believe it all.  I have moments of disbelief about the past and the present, but in different ways. My husband is a very private person. … Continue reading I’m not looking for a fairytale

While he was busy looking for my faults, I was busy ignoring his

When your spouse has an affair, the very first thing you do is ask yourself what you did wrong.  It’s instinctive maybe to just assume that if the love of your life is cheating on you that it’s only logical that you are the problem.  And you will replay your life in your mind, going back again and again on replay to try to figure … Continue reading While he was busy looking for my faults, I was busy ignoring his

Surprises

There have been moments over the last seven years that I questioned whether or not I could possibly survive.  There has been pain, heartache, humiliation, fear, anxiety, tears,  and many sleepless nights.  In the beginning very little resembled joy or happiness.  There were brief weekend moments when he was away from her and that was about it.  When it was over, there was a huge … Continue reading Surprises