I’ve been trying to get here to write, honest! But, this week has been spent doing a lot of napping, and that’s after sleeping late! First, let me say, as much as I want to put the OW out of my mind, she clearly has other plans. So, here’s what’s going on…..
First a preface….so, way back years ago when we both started our blogs (my public one), and at about the point they split for good, maybe a little before, we would basically “poke” each other with visits to each other’s blogs. At this point it would just go back and forth during the day, and since the only time my blog got traffic was when I posted something, as I’m sure was true with hers, we would see a hit and know it was each other. After she switched jobs and all was quiet for a while, I was suspicious that she was still “poking” me. So, I did some research and discovered that I could use some analytics to at least get a city out of who was viewing my blog. Unfortunately, I also saw that they were both looking at my blog at the same time one day (very beginning of their split up). I tried not to blow my cover, but alas, my self-restraint ain’t all that. LOL Anyway, I told him I knew they were both looking and, of course, he told her I was using Statcounter. And, of course, she stopped for a while, but then started using Hidemyass to view my blog, as if I still wouldn’t know it was her, it’s pretty easy to figure out when someone is using a VPN if you really want to find out, especially that one.
So, at some point, I stopped using Statcounter and stopped “poking” her. And for some unknown reason, I started looking at her blog again last year. Nothing had changed, but I just did it. I had not posted in mine for a long time either. Eventually, I became suspicious that she was also looking at mine again. So, after a few months, and a search for my password, I started using Statcounter again. Again, she was “poking” using a VPN. And after several months of once again “poking” each other, I stopped, cold turkey. I decided I was done, and I was ready to let her go. I fully expected her to stop, only she didn’t.
These days she is basically viewing my blog several times a day, and still using a VPN. I feel like she’s trying to tell me something, but I have no idea what. And it’s driving me a little crazy. Sometimes she reads certain blogs, with subject matter that would imply she has something to say. Other times they are just hits on my homepage. I thought maybe she was sending me a message via her Facebook page, so I asked my cousin to find out if there were any cryptic statuses (she has me blocked), but she didn’t see anything, and actually said that she used to make her posts public, but noticed she’s just friends at the moment. So here are my questions:
- Why is she doing this?
- What is she trying to tell me?
- If she wants me to know it’s her and she is trying to tell me something, why is she using a VPN? (I always go to hers using my own ISP) (and I have no doubt she is likely using an analytics program)
- And last, but certainly not least, why doesn’t she just send me an email or a text or something!
So, I suppose I could just ignore the whole thing, but that’s rather difficult. And, she clearly has something to say. I did go back to her blog after a month long hiatus just to see if she posted anything directed to me, but she had not. So, I’m at a loss.
What would you do?