Today I went through my Facebook messages and deleted all of the pictures and videos that her friend had sent me. I wasn’t even tempted to look at them one last time. I had not realized how many there were. My cousin had sent me a few, but mostly they were from her friend. And, I also became friends on FB with my cousin, who works with her. I guess my cover will be blown. haha But, I do not care. My days of caring about her are over. The only things I kept were the screenshots that the other wife sent me of her conversations with her husband on yahoo messenger and email. Oh, and I had to save the nude photos of her that she either sent to my husband or the other husband, and probably somebody else’s husband. And, of course, I have all of my email exchanges with the other wife, and all of that priceless info that she was gracious enough to share with me.
Today, is a new day and a new beginning and I refuse to allow her to be part of it. From now on it will be concentrating on continuing the healing process and hopefully, like any scar, she will fade away and be almost invisible. It’s funny how we can become obsessed with the bad parts of our lives, and I think a lot of us have become obsessed with our OW. We hold in a lot of anger and a lot of resentment and maybe even become obsessed with what they are doing. I remember when it was first over I was asking a girl I know to tell me her FB statuses. Then when my cousin started working there I was asking her, somehow having this need to know what she was doing. That was the first thing to go. Several months ago, maybe at the point she told me that the OW was getting married, I made the decision to stop asking her details about the OW. And, though I admit it was driving me crazy to not really know about whether or not she actually got married, I was strong and did not ask any questions. And, I only occasionally heard from her friend, and it was never me that instigated that. And part of me is actually suspicious that she put the friend up to sending me her wedding video and pictures. She WANTS me to see it. And, it sounds like an easy scam, just pretend like she’s not really her friend.
The bottom line is that I am moving on and I am moving on without her. And I refuse to hold any anger or resentment. She is not going to win any part of me.