Have you ever watched the movie New Moon? I’m guessing that you haven’t. But you should, whether you like Twilight or not. It beautifully and hauntingly describes a lot things we are all familiar with. In the book there are four chapters completely blank. It’s easy to understand that, after Edward is gone, it’s all blank, everything. Time and seasons come and go, but to Bella it’s all just blankness, empty. The movie portrays that emptiness very well. You can almost feel the pain.
I have often considered writing a book, a novel, on life experience. You are supposed to write about what you know, the things that we are familiar with. Something tells me that that book would be really easy to write. The only problem is, so much of it would just be empty pages, pages of blankness.
I’m going to do this instead, at least for now. But, to be honest, I’m not sure what to say, or even if I should be saying it. It’s very hard to know.
I’ve been writing this for four days now, trying to decide what to do, how to proceed. I’ve deleted and started over several times. Life is hard, isn’t it?
I try not to hate anyone despite any pain I’ve been caused. I don’t think it helps a soul to hate. That doesn’t mean that I don’t feel hate at times. I do. Sometimes it comes out. Most of the time it doesn’t.
My next post will really be the beginning of this blog. It will be long, painful, difficult, but I’m hoping therapeutic.
I hope you stay tuned.